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*pfffft* The titles is from the song I'm listening now, so.. :'D

Ahh, I'm again here for a gloomy update. Well, not actually that gloomy since most of the recent shit has been hitting my friend's fan, but it affected me almost as much. These things happened a week ago, so I'm not really worked up about them anymore, but it will hit me when this one bitch comes back from Barcelona.

So.. It was shit at school, and my classmates are all assholes who think they can pull shit on me without me reacting to it. Enough about that for now, will update about it once I get to school again. Haven't been since the incident but I kinda need to get back soon..
But yeah, there was a lot of shit happening, and that included the police also, and it will continue to be dealt with this friday so.. More info maybe later.

And yeah, other than that, I have again come to realize what a piece of shit humankind is. Why? Well, I've again been dealing with shitty people, and it starts to get so fucking tiring..
My classmates - No fucking respect. Selfish. They just mock and laugh people who are feeling bad right in front of them. Horrible kids.
My friend's aunt - Total shitbag. Calls herself a vegetarian and saving the animals, still just tells my friend to kill her pet and then clean up the mess, while she sits and watches the TV. And just continues to watch the TV when my friend is cutting herself, and after that says; "now you've done it, i'll put you in nuthouse now."
That aunt's 8-year-old son - Twisted, sick child. Shows now other emotion than amusement when the pet is getting killed, tells my friend to clean up the blood from the bathroom so that he could go to the toilet, and laughs when my friend is cutting herself.
My ""friend"" - We were kinda close pals, had fun and all, she could even talk to me about her problems and all.. But then they broke up with their girlfriend, and she soon started accusing me of trying to steal her girl, and when I tried suicide, she was just disappointed I didn't succeed.. She wrote me long message in Facebook, talling me stupid ass stuff, and when I replied, she never did. I fucking hate it when people can't work things out.

But yeah, now to better subjects!! >8D I like them a lot more, don't you?

So I have finally uploaded every new cosplay photo here that I had from previous places, so I'm quite proud of myself! Next up is to do more cosplays, I just hope I have some money since I'm running shorter and shorter on it, and for 2010 there are A LOT of expenses.. Cons and trip to Estonia.
In this month I'll be cosplaying with the wondeful ~XIIIYay(love ya girl, you've been a great support in everything) and I'm really excited for that! It's been ages since I last saw her!
I had cosplay and hanging out plans with ~tukkinakki too, but unfortunately they had to be cancelled. .___. It sucks, since I was really looking forward to it, 'cos we have never cosplayed together before and we haven't seen each other in forever.. ;;___;;

Then more about the Cons and convention before I move completely into a new subject! >D
For this year there isn't any cons coming up, which is a good thing since I'm tired of running in them for now, and I can cosplay out of them anyway. But I miss travelling! But yeah, for 2010 there are A LOT of Cons coming up, and also I'm going to Estonia in late February.
For 2010, there will be a one Con in these months; February(well, technically it's not a Con, it's a Gala), March, April, May, June and July!! So after January in every month until autumn again! O_O If I plan to go in every one of them, I need to work on cosplays non-stop and really figure out where the hell do I get money? :'D If I start dropping some of them out, then I do them as what would cost me the most, travelling costs I mean.. Since only one of those Cons if in my area, all other I have to travel to!
The Gala I'm not dropping, no way in hell, I want to see the competion there and be awesome in my awesome outfit! And also, I ain't dropping the one in March, since I have plans with ~XIIIYay there again. April I might drop, but really wouldn't want to since it was so much fun last year at that same place. May I will never even think of dropping, since that is the one in my city, so DAMN RIGHT I'M GOING! I might have costumeplans for that already, need to see still.. >D But definitely something BIG 'cos I don't need to carry stuff in a train. June I might drop, I already lost my partner to that but I still hope to go. And I'll work hard to ensure that I won't have to drop July, since I'd have so much fun there(even though the last of the same con was HELL).
But yeah, we'll see.


Hey, did anyone notice that I have placed a new link to the top of this journal? So, now I have started to list them(as can see from my last journal 8'D ) and will do them, when ever the hell I feel like it! No complaints accepted, don't like don't read -policy again.
Next up I think I'll review some horror movies, since we have quite lot of them right now.


But now, Prince out~



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I'm Sekai Ichi No Otoko To Yobareru Tameni in the deviantART One Piece music crew!

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Krhm, so I'm a little late, eh?
Well, I usually am.

This is gonna be a serious update once again, you know, since I'm such an emo kid and whiny shit. So, no need to read forward if you don't care about my misfortune.

Angst starts
My Halloween went a lot different like I had planned it. I was going on upload all the photos I had here and then the Halloween pic, and then work on cosplays. BUT, it all just changed to chaos that led to something very, very unwise.
Suicide attempt.
Yeah, that's right. I have(along with ~Suggarcat) recently tried to commit suicide, and as you can see, failed at it. My reason consisted stress, my all plans going to ruin, loosing all my money, my way to Rammstein's concert, my changes to cosplay and my home. So yeah, pretty much had enough of everything that night. And ~Suggarcat's reasons I'm not gonna talk, since they are her own business but they weren't/aren't really light either.
Not going any further now in this, put I have decided to write it all down and post it as a little story... It has a sense of.. melancholy(?) in it, and I think it could be a good story or so.

Do you know the feeling when a person who calls herself your mom(she isn't my real mom) just accuses you of using, cheating and lying, and then throws you out?
Yeah. Neither did I before this.
Angst ends

Now then.

Gonna upload the photos, and Halloween pic. Then have to start looking for an apartment and all that..

AND oh yeah, if I can't get a wig for Sanji I can't cosplay him in a long time. We cut my hair today, at accidentally it got a bit too short on the front. So it doesn't cover my eyes anymore = no Sanji. I have to get a wig... Because my hair doesn't grow!! It just doesn't.. The bangs I had, hand't grown anywhere in years!! So I think they aren't gonna grow back anytime soon.. It's fucking horrible, since I look just awful like this. Need a wig..Need a wig.. Need a wig.. Unfortunately I don't have credit card so I could buy from eBay.. I hope someone will be kind enough to order it for me.
I could at least be AU-Sanji..

Does anyone know how to make hair grow fater??? DD:




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I'm Sanji's hairy legs in dA's OP item crew!
I'm Sekai Ichi No Otoko To Yobareru Tameni in the deviantART One Piece music crew!

Mates (alphabetical order, folks!)






Clubs I'm in (Random order)



















Good places to find the clubs for you